So true

I could and did fall apart when Josh died

But I will never forget the question I was asked weeks after he died

"Where do you see yourself in five years"?

My reply was,

"With at least two children"

The professional was speechless.

Yes I was in a terrible place

I had held for 32 hours the joy of a baby I had birthed and I wanted it again

Yes 3 1/2 years later I had two more babies in my arms

I did know the joy babies brings into a family

but to bring one home to love and grow

showed me the great joy in a whole new life.